Calais McSheffrey

Winner - 2020

I was born, raised and educated in the beautiful cultural mash of South Auckland. My relationship with poetry started through spoken word in high school. I’m currently finishing my BA focusing on Māori and Indigenous rights at Victoria University of Wellington. These pieces are part of a portfolio where I translated what I couldn’t express onto paper in the hopes that whoever reads them aloud would be taken on the same journey of emotions they took me.

— Calais McSheffrey

Re[son]ate[s]

These kids play in the streets like danger’s their home

Playing ‘chicken’ with trucks and sirens

Like another brown boy death is just another brown boy dead

Gunshots a lullaby

Flashing lights the alarm

Streets bleed red and blue

Gang signs a mother’s tongue

Doorstepping cause nobody will open their doors

For us

Unless it’s a cell

Like another arrest just adds to the legacy

Because we are danger itself

Strapped in more ways than one

So we resonate with the streets

Lay our laments in the asphalt

Hold vigils under lampposts

And build burial sites along pavements

In memory of our sons.

Internal

This is a call to the wind

Fill the cavities in my teeth

Choke me with your presence.

Lungs drown in too much, too little

Muscles clench at a breeze

Like touch reignites self loathing

Be gentle.

Lay your kiss upon my collarbone

Graze over the stretch marks

Make remarks about them

Spit on them if you have to.

Trace shivers down my spine

Hold my thighs hostage again

Caress my ankles

Wrap around them

And catch me as I fall

Into the abyss.